The smell of good
savoury cooking filled Glen’s little apartment.
Together Doris and Alice sat, side by side on the chesterfield, flanked
by Stephen and Pierre, who still hadn’t moved.
Doris saw them both as awfully young.
But everyone seemed young to her, even Alice who wasn’t ten years her
junior. Where had the time gone? She was almost sixty-four. But she didn’t know her real age. Almost no one knew this about her. Beyond when she was a girl of twenty or so
occupying a bed-sit in London while German bombs were being rained upon them,
Doris had absolutely no memory, no childhood, no parents. Had she simply sprung into existence, a
fledged adult? She didn’t know. She had fabricated a simple story of her
parents having died in an air raid when she was eighteen and nearly of age,
leaving her no living relative. For some
reason she’d assumed that she was Jewish.
She had been told
that she was excessively virtuous. She
had never been anything but good, kind and unselfish. She had never been exploited on account of
her goodness. Whether no one had ever pulled it off or had never tried to she
didn’t know. She trusted others
absolutely and she had therefore never experienced betrayal. Her saintliness was nearly legendary. She didn’t know how she’d ended up with the
Quakers. But the well-being of the
planet had always been her great priority.
It seemed odd to her, this living without a shadow, with no concealed
motive, no ambition towards her own self-advancement. Everything she had ever needed had always
come to her unbidden. If she suffered,
it was only because there was evil in the world and all of humanity and the
planet had been already grievously wounded by this.
Right now she
suffered over Stephen and Pierre, whose lives she knew almost nothing
about. It wasn’t that she felt their
pain—she knew their pain and suffered greatly over them both. As she had often suffered over Alice, and
especially over her own husband. In Sam,
Doris had become acquainted with the greatest mysteries of humanity—the mystery
of suffering because of evil. Even to
her he had said little of his experiences during the war, the years he spent in
the death camp. He told her only what
she needed to know.
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