The Peacock 1580

Before I continue, please let me make one thing perfectly clear. To this day, neither myself, nor Philip's ex-husband have any regrets at all about transitioning. But from my conversations with Philip following their divorce, it did become evident that we, the three of us, share many of the same unanswerable questions. Primarily, this: What is Gender? Julian, shortly after the stillbirth, as he was retransitioning his gender, often asked this same question to Philip, and Philip simply echoed back to him that same question. But neither parent recovered from the stillbirth, and that proved to be an irrevocable wedge in their marriage. Julian blamed both of them. Philip would blame neither. I asked him if he ever had thoughts himself about transitioning. I am using the masculine pronouns because that is how he references himself. He simply replied that either way, male or female, he would be telling himself a lie. Julian felt the same, but this simply worsened his depression and now he is under permanent psychiatric care...