“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I’m
sure. Now please give me my things.”
“Come in and take
them,” Peter said to Margery. “No, not
you.” He tried to block Dwight with his
hand.
“It’s okay,
Dwight. I’ll only be a minute.”
“So, this is it?”
Peter said.
“Look, I told you
from the very start that this was going to be only temporary.”
“And you’re moving
back with HIM?”
“Why not?”
“I thought that it
was over between you.”
“It
never—what-EVER!”
“You don’t have to
be sarcastic.”
“Sorry.”
“This is pretty
sudden.”
“It’s not like I
was paying rent.”
“So this is really
it, Margery? Tell me.”
“This is it.”
“How could you?” He
was weeping.
“We’re
divorced—remember?”
“But you were
wanting to reconcile.”
“Where did you get
that idea? Now, please, I have to get my
things. Dwight is waiting.”
“Who the hell is
he, anyway?”
“Oh, some guy.”
“You just picked
him up off the street.”
“I picked him up at
work. I have a whole closet full of
gorgeous men who take turns with me and stop your damn crying already!”
“Margery, I love
you. You can’t do this to me.”
“Peter, just go
away, so I can get my things together.
Please. Just step out of the room
or whatever.”
She had to work
fast. She’d brought with her three black
plastic garbage bags into which she stuffed clothes, toiletries, books. But she must, on this trip, get everything.
She wasn’t returning. She thought that
was it. Running as fast as she could
with three full garbage bags she said, “’Bye Peter”, then ran out into the hall
where Dwight was waiting.
“Three bags full!”
He took two of
them.
“God, what a mess!
He was actually crying.” They got in the
car. “I’ve never, never, ever, not in
the two years we were married, seen Peter cry.
It was freaky. Home, Jeeves.”
“How are you
feeling?”
“A bit fragile,
actually. And hungry.”
“Would you like to
go out for something?”
“Where? The Pitstop?”
“You could even go
live there instead of with me.”
“I already do.”
“You want to go
straight there or should we take your things home first.”
“I’m sure
everything’s safe in the trunk.
They were the only
patrons present. Marlene, remembering
them both, greeted them warmly and offered them menus. She even remembered this time Margery’s name. They sat by the window underneath the
chandelier.
“So what’re you
having?” Marlene said.
“Greek salad for
me”, Margery said.
“And Dwight?”
“Mushroom burger
with fries.”
Margery did not
want to go in to work tomorrow. She was
tired, she was emotional, she wasn’t fit for taking care of anyone and she most
certainly was not fit to have to go on matching wits with her boss, Theresa
Somerville. It had all been quite a
set-up. When Margery started working
there at Oak Hill Lodge four years ago, the conditions were deplorable. Much of the staff had been poorly, if at all,
trained. Patients were often left
unattended, strapped to their beds, often soiling themselves and being left to
sit in it for the next day or two. They
were verbally, sometimes physically abused, and Margery blew the whistle. A full investigation had been launched. Several times she had been featured in the
papers and on the six and eleven o’clock news as a local heroine having risked
her livelihood in order to come to the rescue of all those helpless old
people. Derek Merkeley had written a
couple of favourable pieces about her.
Charges were laid against the administration board of Oak Hill Lodge. It was Theresa Somerville’s family
connections alone—which also Derek wrote about—that kept her out of
prison. Her brother was a supreme court
judge. She stayed on the board, yielded to every one of the guidelines of the
health department and Long Term Care.
And of course she would have to keep Margery, her bete noir. She did everything in her power to make it
necessary for her to quit, but Margery clung stubbornly to her position. She had not yet begun to crack and she had
not yet begun to fight. She had not
mentioned to Carol that they had the same journalist in common.
“Look, there’s
Carol”, Margery said while Dwight stirred cream in his coffee. “Carol, come sit with us, please.” She looked elegant, sexy in her Ray-Ban
Shades and her honey-coloured hair clinging semi-loose around her
shoulders. She wore tight blue jeans, a
snug fitting black pullover and black boots.
“You look like a
movie star”, Margery said as Carol sat next to her.
“I’m meeting
someone.”
“A man?”
“How’d you
guess?” She took off her Ray Bans and
let them rest on the table. She was
wearing light make-up.
“We’re not keeping
you, I hope”, Dwight said.
“No. Not at all.
Actually, I was wondering if you could do me a favour?”
“Yes. Speak.” Margery said.
“This journalist
who’s been pestering me and writing those slanderous articles about me? He wants to meet me here. And I don’t feel entirely comfortable about
it.”
“He wants to
arrange a deal with you?” Dwight said.
“He didn’t say
exactly what. But he wants me to buy his
silence.”
“He wants you to
put out for him?” Dwight said. “Stay
with us, I think I know how to handle this one.”
“Are you sure?”
“You’re not through
with us yet, surely”, Margery said.
Carol ordered a
caesar salad from Marlene, who said good-naturedly, “The gang’s all here.”
Glen came in,
followed by Randall, who pointedly avoided their table. Glen sat with them briefly.
“I can’t believe
you’re working here”, Carol said.
“Neither can I.”
Margery could see
that Carol was putting on a brave face.
She found somewhat jarring her forced bonhomie.
Marlene summoned
Glen to the back of the café.
“I’m a free woman
now”, Margery said.
“What—you got your
things? How’d it go?”
“Can we talk about
something pleasant?”
“He was that bad?”
“He didn’t hit me.”
“Well, you have
that to be thankful for.”
“Among other
things”, Dwight said.
“How’s your
caesar?” Margery asked.
“Mm…
Marvelous. I do like the food here.”
“I can’t believe
how quiet it is.”
“They make a lot of
their money off the after bar crowd”, Dwight said.
Marlene came to the
table. “Carol, there’s a phone call for
you.”
“Excuse me,
please.” She went to the bar and picked up the phone. “Hello”.
“Hello, Carol, this
is Derek. Shall we meet at Gi-Gi’s down
the street instead?”
“Why not here?”
“It’s not really my
scene.”
“Well, Gi-Gi’s
isn’t mine either.”
“You couldn’t
compromise?”
“Did you see me in
the Pitstop just now?”
“Darling, I want us
to have some moments alone.”
“First you have to
meet my friends.”
“I don’t think your
friends would like me.”
“Well, I don’t like
you.”
“Yes, you do. You adore me.
Carol, come to Gi-Gi’s.”
“I’ve already
eaten.
“I haven’t
submitted that article yet.”
“Go right
ahead. We have a good lawyer at the
Peace Coalition.”
“Carol.”
“Derek.”
“You’re mocking
me.”
“You make it very
enjoyable, darling. Come meet my
friends.”
“You called me
‘darling’”.
“Don’t get used to
it.”
“So, when can you
be here?”
“I’m not coming.”
“Shall I run that
article?”
“We can sue your
ass off. But, Derek, I have to go, I
don’t want to keep my friends waiting.”
“We have a
date. Remember?”
“It isn’t my fault
you’re breaking it.” She hung up the
phone and returned to the table. Her
teeth were tightly clenched when she sat down again.
“Bad news?” asked
Margery.
“I just broke my
date.”
“Wanna hang out
with us?”
“Nothing else to
do.”
“We’re nothing special”,
Dwight said.
“Don’t worry”,
Carol said, “Neither is Derek.”
“You said that
beautifully”, Dwight said.
“Thanks.”
“Have you thought
of writing?”
“I sometimes keep a
journal. I wrote a lot of bad poetry in
college.”
“We ALL wrote a lot
of bad poetry in college. But Carol,
tell me, please. Have you thought of
writing?”
“Seriously?”
“Yes.”
“At times, I
guess. I don’t know if I’d be good
enough.”
“Most of us fall
into that category.”
“And usually I’m
too busy. Well, not this week. I have the entire week off.”
“Then write.”
“What should I
write about?”
“Anything. Whatever is on your mind, whatever is close
to your heart. But write from the heart,
Carol.”
“Sure. I might try it.”
With Carol the
bonhomie seemed to have faded. She appeared
reticent, quiet, locked inside herself.
She reached into her tote bag and pulled out a large battered yellow
envelope that she set on the table next to her Ray-Bans. Just as she opened her mouth to speak, Derek
came in. To Carol he said, “May I?”
She looked at him,
then beseechingly at Dwight and Margery.
He sat next to her anyway. He
looked hard at Margery, who smiled back wanly.
“Margery Germaine?”
“Derek Merkeley?”
“I believe I have
written about you.”
“I believe you
have. Please meet my dear friend, Dwight
Llewellyn.”
“Not the
playwright.” Derek ingratiatingly shook
his hand.
“I am indeed.”
“Your work
positively sings. You are the next
Tennessee Williams.”
“Why thank
you. I have a new work in progress. And if you promise to start treating our
friend, here, Carol, with a little respect and dignity, then I’ll promise to
leave you out of it.”
“Doesn’t mean I
won’t review it.”
“Doesn’t mean
you’ll ever get a chance to.”
The two men glared
at each other like two fighting roosters in a cock ring.
Derek said, “I’m
sure we can settle this like gentlemen.”
“Pistols or
sabres?” Dwight said.
“’She Was Wearing
Black Lace’”, Derek said.
“Did you enjoy it?”
“Immensely. It’s still running, isn’t it?”
“It goes to Toronto
next month.”
“And Margery”,
Derek said, “You are looking uncommonly well.”
“I AM uncommonly
well.”
“Have you bailed
from that awful nursing home?”
“Still sticking it
out. Theresa’s doing her utmost to get
rid of me but I’m not going to budge.”
“That could make good
copy. Can I talk to my editor?”
“By all means. Provided Carol is off the hook.”
“Carol?” Derek was
gazing adoringly at Margery. “Carol?”
Carol forced the
remotest of smiles.
“Well, you can’t
always have the lime-light now can you darling?”
“I feel very
rejected.”
“Is that your new
play?” Derek said gesturing at the envelope.”
“I don’t know what
that is.” Glen approached them with a
coffee-pot.
“Glen”, Carol said,
“Do sit with us when you get a chance.”
“Marlene wants me
to look busy. I get off at nine.”
“Are we staying
until nine?” Carol said.
“It wouldn’t be
hard in this joint”, Margery said.
“What’s in the
envelope?” Dwight asked.
Carol was touching
it reverently. Margery could see that
this wasn’t going to be easy for her.
“This is a collection of letters I received from Richard shortly after
he left Vancouver. I’ve been carrying
them with me the last few days. In
part---to feel him near me, since…since his death. But also—also I was hoping that I could find
someone who’d help me—what is the word for it—who’d help me decode them.”
“Are they written
in Sanskrit?” Derek said. So far Randall
had come nowhere near their table. He
was serving a male couple who’d just sat down in the back.
“No they are not
written in Sanskrit.”
“I tried learning
it for a while”, Dwight said, “Beautiful but very difficult.”
“They say that the
root language to the Indo-European family was likely very similar to Sanskrit”,
Derek said. Margery could see that
Dwight and he were already liking each other.
This worried her.
“Would you like to
share some of Richard’s letters with us now Carol?” Margery said.
“I’m not sure if it
would be appropriate. Well—all right,
one letter. His first actually. Nowhere
does he say where he is writing from, but I assume it’s somewhere on the West
Coast of Vancouver Island.”
“This morning, a
raven fell out of the sky and landed dead at my feet. Truly this must be a sign. I have taken one of the long flight feathers
from its left wing. I have since covered
the bird with twelve stones, one for each month, for each tribe of Israel, for
each Apostle, for each step of recovery.
Before I covered the bird, I placed on top of it a piece of paper with
my name and date of birth written on it.
“I have just gone
to Tofino for provisions. I think I’m
going to be staying here for a while.
Someone told me that I shouldn’t be camping where I am because it’s an
Indian burial ground, and it has been cursed.
Now they tell me. After my first
night there last night, I think almost anything can happen. Martin’s totally freaked out now. He’s left for Victoria, says he needs time to
recover. While we were sleeping, he woke
up groaning quite loudly. I asked him
what’s up and he said that he had been trying to stop this entity pulsating
with weird energy from jumping on me.
Then it turned on him. So we lay
awake and talked for a while. Then I
went back to sleep. Well, suddenly,
there it is, that thing. It had a human
shape or form, but there was a definite space alien aspect to it. It looked almost like a yin-yang, with this
huge rush of silvery white energy pulsing next to the black. It took hold of me. I woke screaming. When I described it to
Martin he said that was exactly what it looked like. I’m probably an idiot for wanting to stay
on. But I’m staying on.”
“Is that it?” Derek
said.
“There’s more, but
I think I can read it later.”
“What do you make
of it?” Margery said.
“Richard has always
puzzled me”, Carol said. “But we were
lovers, so why wouldn’t I find him puzzling?
A very open, forthright man.
Transparent almost to the point of being shallow, for which reason he
would have made a good Australian.”
“C’mon”, Derek
said, “You haven’t seen any of the films of Peter Weir?”
“Touche, but there
was always a side to him that was closed, sealed off from others. I don’t think even he knew what it was. He was a man with secrets, but not knowing
what they were. It was like he was
living simultaneously on two levels.
Both were authentic, but disjointed.
Schizoid.”
“There was no
indication he was on a quest?”
“He was always
looking for justice, he was thoroughly dedicated to the poor, to assisting
others in their struggle for dignity.”
“But there was no
sense of impending crisis before he left?”
“He was depressed. I had no idea what he must have been dealing
with. He never said anything about
it. I soon tired of asking him if
everything was okay, and he’d only answer yes.”
“He didn’t say
where he was going?” Margery said.
“Nothing. We weren’t seeing a lot of each other. He was working twelve to sixteen hour days at
the clinic and I was a full time student.
We only seemed to meet in bed, and even then at least one of us would be
sleeping.”
“How utterly
romantic”, Derek said. “Was he your
first?”
“What do you mean
by that?”
“Was he the first
man that you ever had.”
“And why would you
like to know?”
“Just curious.”
“I don’t think it’s
any of your damn business.”
“All right, all
right, then. I’ll leave.” Derek got up and passed Dwight his card. “Give me a call sometime.”
“And Carol, where
will I have the privilege of seeing you again?”
“I already told
you—before the Judgement Seat of God.”
“I believe you
borrowed that line from the granddaughter of William Booth, who founded the
Salvation Army? It had been in Paris, I
believe, that an audacious gentleman had approached her, but where else but in
Paris? And she actually converted
him. Almost on the spot.”
As Derek left Carol
muttered, staring down at the table, “Don’t go away mad, just go away.” To Margery she said curtly, “Why are you
looking at me in that tone of voice.”
“You’re really
attracted to him, aren’t you?”
“Does it show?”
“You played him
well. I was admiring your handiwork.”
“Men think they’re
gods—that they can get away with anything, but there’s one thing that isn’t
theirs for the taking—”
“That’s why we
behave that way”, Dwight said smiling.
“Compensation.”
“Oh, sorry”, Carol
said, giggling.
“You see, Dwight,”
Margery said, “It’s just awfully easy sometimes to forget that you’re a man.”
“Thank you. Now dig deeper.”
“I mean it as a
compliment, love. You embody only the
most noble virtues of manhood—I don’t think you have a swinish bone in your
body.”
“Except one?”
Carol suddenly
shrieked with peals of shocked laughter, and Margery joined in.
“You’re gross. You’re evil”, Margery said.
“Oink oink oink!
Hey Margery, I’ll just leave my dirty socks lying around the livingroom for you
to pick up from now on.”
“New design
concept?”
“So what do you
make of Derek?” Carol said, after they’d caught their breath again.
“Speaking of
swine”, Margery said.
“What—what’s wrong
with him?”
“The question is,
what’s right with him?”
“He is so
incredibly sexy and he makes my skin crawl at the same time”, Carol said.
“He’s used to getting
his own way”, Margery said. ”With women,
anyway. But, Carol, if you want my
honest opinion, stay away from him. I
think he could be dangerous.”
“Or you could ask
him to buy you a vibrator and give him a picture of himself naked”, Dwight
said.
“Eww! Are you trying to gross me out?”
“Can’t resist an
easy target.”
Margery could tell
this last remark of Dwight’s was, for Carol, a bit over the top. The lightness of their collective mood was
gone. Everything had gone flat. Margery felt slightly grotty, as though she’d
just spent the day cleaning fish.
“Sorry”, Dwight
said.
“Don’t worry about
it. I’m just a small town church kid, I
guess.”
“Underneath it
all?”
“Yeah, I guess.”
Margery said, “I’m
feeling kind of restless.”
“So am I”, Carol
said.
“Let’s go for a
walk. Hey, Dwight, come walking with
us?”
“Where?”
“I don’t care. It’s nice out. Let’s just walk till we’re
bored or tired.”
“Your things are
still in the car.”
“We can take them
home first.”
“But then I might
not feel like leaving.”
“Carol and I can
walk, can’t we, Carol? Girls’ night.”
“We can go to the
trails in Stanley Park and gang-rape young homosexual men.”
“That would be a
feat worthy of literature”, Dwight said.
Carol looked on,
between and past Dwight and Margery, her face desperately construed with the
will for having a good time. She
suddenly, to Margery, within her tight black sweater, appeared like a little
girl playing hard at looking all grown up, at incarnating and bringing to life
before her youth and beauty could be snatched from her forever all the Barbies
that her strict fundamentalist father never permitted her to own or play
with. They paid their bill, said good
bye to Glen, Marlene, but not to Randall, who seemed busy in the back, and left
the Pitstop Eatery together.
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