I am still tired. Travel is exhausting. I have been back three days and still don't have all my energy. When I got off the plane I was tired from sleep deprivation since it was a dawn flight and when I got home I wanted to lie down though first I unpacked, after buying a monthly bus pass and milk and getting money from the bank machine. After a nap I got all my banking and most of my grocery shopping done, plus a three mile walk. The day after I was back at work. I have always been the hit the ground running type and for good reason. I always feel better when I have no pending obligations, when all my ducks are in a row. I do not do slovenly well. Even when I'm home all alone I remain reasonably well dressed. I might slob out to the point of letting my shirt hang out of my pants, but otherwise I look and dress at home the way I do at work or out on the street. I am my own guest and my own host and I like to look good for myself. I will not show one face to the world while letting the monster out at home. I have always wanted consistency, seamlessness and integrity.
For now I am tired. I have started doing my taxes, but not this evening. It is time to rest and work on a painting, write hotel reviews on Tripadvisor, snack, read and listen to the Ideas program on CBC Radio One. This I suppose is my way of unwinding and resting. I am tired. Following the radio progam I might watch a video in Spanish, then stumble off to bed.
Travel is never restful. It is a challenge. I experience no ballast or protection in the all inclusive or the tourist resort. It is as though I become vulnerable and naked (well, spiritually naked) as I walk and live in a foreign country among the people who live there, meeting them, speaking in their language, learning from them and laughing with them. I have never in my life felt so rich. Or so tired. Renewal is exhausting.
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